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2022

comparison is the thief of joy 2

I feel anxious today. I feel anxious a lot actually. I feel as if I'm not as good as my peers. Or that I'm not achieving as much as them. Lot's of comparisons being made lately. But need to remind myself from time to time that it's all okay. It's okay. Take your time. My existence is but a blip on this world. Who remembers the richest family and people of the 18th century, that's right, not a lot.

I have a good life, a good gf, a good job. I'll be grateful. Not fully satisfied, but I'll always be grateful for what I have.

comparison is the thief of joy

some words by /u/Oberon_Swanson

First off is the quote "You are comparing your behind-the-scenes to everyone else's highlight reel." People bring up this quote a lot in regards to social media, but it actually applies to every interaction you have ever had with anyone else in your entire life.

People don't tell you about all their little failures and they also don't often tell you about their deepest fears, regrets, insecurities, and so on. People will be eager to tell you when they got an awesome new job, they will be not so eager to talk about how they've sent out 100 applications and no responses. And even when they do, it will be at a moment of their choosing, and framed in a way that makes them look not so bad.

Thus, you actually aren't comparing your life to anyone else's. You are comparing your life to what people choose to share about theirs. There is also the rather mathematical impossibility of winning a lot of these comparisons, especially when you focus on people who have it better than you. Jonny is better than you at math, Jimmy is taller than you, and Jenny is better than you at gym class. Even if you are actually much better than average in all these respects, even among your peers, that's not what you see when you compare--you just see all the ways people are better than you. So it's just lose, lose, lose, everywhere you look. And even when you are the best around instead of feeling good you just stop caring about that and focus your attention on something else where you're not.

Another thing to consider is that each person is different. Everybody is so different that it is rather insane to even compare two people and say one is better than the other. That guy who's better than you at French? Maybe his mom watched a lot of french movies and so has he. That guy who beats everyone in basketball--he goes right home and practices, watches basketball, and he's been playing since before you were in kindergarten. Did you do those things? No? Would you trade your life and past for one filled with playing basketball? No? Then why are you feeling so bad that he is better at basketball than you?

I find it is still hard to stop these comparative thoughts from cropping up, but you just have to know they are useless and dismiss them. Don't chastise yourself when you have these thoughts, they are natural. Focus on your own goals and your own life and go after what you want. Take care of the people you care abut. Stand up for what you believe in. Try to leave the world a better place than when you found it. Chase your dreams. That's all that matters. Be happy there are other people around you with good qualities, or people who are better than you at things you want to be the best at. Would you want to have your current level of skill and be the best in the world? No.

It is true that some people will have advantages you do not have. You and the prettiest girl in the school both want to become actresses. It's not going to be as easy for you. You want to start your own business. It's not going to be as easy for you as it will be for the trust fund kid whose dad has money and connections in the industry you want to be in. You want to go to Harvard. It's not going to be as easy for you than it is for the kids whose parents are alumni, and paid for tutoring and violin lessons and sent him to study abroad over summer while you worked a shitty job just to save up for tuition. Life is not fair. This will be shoved in your face over and over again. You can do everything right and still fail where another person could have done everything wrong and succeeded. You could eat healthy and exercise and be diagnosed with brain cancer at 19 while a 110 year old drinks and smokes every day.

You must seek out the good in your life, and the good you can do, and focus on it. You are never gonna be anybody else but you. Play the hand you were dealt as best as you can. If that means you have to go to extremes to live the life you want, then go to those extremes. Many of the people you envy have gone to those extremes already without showing it. You can either spend your life whining to yourself you weren't born a supermodel billionaire pro athelete supergenius ruling monarch, or you can do what actually matters to you.

nothing else to be done

After 25 years of career, I still have to see an organization where things are so perfect that: - no refactoring is needed - no additional documentation is useful, it's all there shiny and beautiful. And it updates itself nightly. - logging/monitoring/diagnostic tools are perfect - builds are so fast that you wonder if you did press enter - all necessary linters are configured and used - everything has unit tests - and integration tests - and there's enough time for exploring alternative technologies for future development - and enough time for contributing feature/fixes upstream for the open source things you use - and you cannot build tools to answer asks from customers even faster So yes, you may not get official tickets assigned to you, but it doesn't mean there's nothing else to be done. Perceiving that need is the first step for moving from junior to more senior role, acting on that need is the second step.

Now, depending on the country you're in, social norms may make you unpopular among co-workers and managers alike if you move too much, so there's that.

Beautiful lessons by /u/mavvam

the shopping cart

The shopping cart is the ultimate litmus test for whether a person is capable of self-governing. To return the shopping cart is an easy, convenient task and one which we all recognize as the correct, appropriate thing to do. To return the shopping cart is objectively right. There are no situations other than dire emergencies in which a person is not able to return their cart. Simultaneously, it is not illegal to abandon your shopping cart. Therefore the shopping cart presents itself as the apex example of whether a person will do what is right without being forced to do it.

No one will punish you for not returning the shopping cart, no one will fine you, or kill you for not returning the shopping cart, you gain nothing by returning the shopping cart. You must return the shopping cart out of the goodness of your own heart. You must return the shopping cart because it is the right thing to do. Because it is correct.

A person who is unable to do this is no better than an animal, an absolute savage who can only be made to do what is right by threatening them with a law and the force that stands behind it.

The Shopping Cart is what determines whether a person is a good or bad member of society.

As To Minh Son says: "4chan shit"

god laughs and decides

Darwin spends five billion years optimizing your genes for reproduction, and God laughs and decides that whether or not you mate will depend on which weird parties you go to, or whatever. - some user on /r/TheMotte

democracy as a terminal value

telling people that they only get to win elections if they vote for things they don't actually want is isomorphic to telling them they don't get to vote. The point of voting is securing one's preferences. If voting can't do that, voting is pointless.

I do not believe anyone involved in this discussion at any level considers democracy itself as a terminal value. If a durable 75% majority of Americans supported reinstating slavery of a specific ethnic/racial group, it would be madness to expect the other 25% to simply accept this outcome because them's the rules, so whaddya gonna do? If you convince people that they do not have a reasonable hope of achieving their preferences through the political system, they will work to achieve those preferences through other systems. - /u/FCfromSSC

friends come and go

"Friends come and go, but a good enemy stays with you forever." - Hagar the Horrible

And more:

Ever since man first left his cave and met a stranger with a different language and a new way of looking at things, the human race has had a dream: to kill him, so we don't have to learn his language or his new way of looking at things.

flower pop up in a field of snow

I had a similar transition in my walk with Christ. While others claim grandiose visions and moments of overwhelming emotion as their conversion experiences, I feel my God seemingly did not come to me in such a manner. Instead, I simply... started caring one day about God and His will, realizing that I needed to seek His desires over my own, in a change so sudden that I myself didn't even notice it at first. Like... seeing a flower pop up in a field of snow, not there until it is suddenly very much there. - some user on /r/TheMotte